in some parts of Germany we call the time between Xmas and New Year ‘between the years’ – Zwischen den Jahren. i like that expression because it really captures this weird in-between meandering around Winter Solstice and the strange shift from the often quiet, homely and potentially slightly solemn Xmas family days on the sofa to the loud party time of New Year on the streets… in Germany the end of the calendar year is also the end of the financial year so a lot of offices will be busy finalising their accounts – and i remember as a child that lots of shops would close ‘between the years’ to be able to do their annual inventory so even the town would feel weirdly in between busy and quiet.
i’m also feeling a bit caught in between at the moment and have a bit of a blog crisis – i was lying awake in the early hours yesterday morning wondering why i’m actually doing that blog?
how come it’s become one of those petra-projects that i do with so much discipline and dependability that i forget why i started it in the first place?
what difference does it make – to myself, first of all, to others, you?
is it about proving that i can write and take pictures? or is it about keeping a record? is it about self-expression? or is it about having a voice and stepping into my power? is it about adding a voice into the mix of voices from the media, journalists, opinion makers – just one voice but one that ensures a bigger diversity of seeing the world?
i’ve lost track of what i’m to do with this blog and realised i don’t want to just keep doing it because that’s what i do faithfully every weekend. so i’ll take a break for a month or so to think this over.
if any of you reads this post i’d be grateful for any feedback why you read this – what you get out of it – what you think about my questions. thanks!